Post by Deleted on Mar 31, 2013 12:23:54 GMT -8
So um, as for explanation as to why I'm doing this, I'm just (As I put in the other RP group about a year ago) not feeling... "it" anymore. My muse is completely drained from my body. I'm not going to lie, I have RPed with other people since my sudden silence, but just short one-liner and one paragraph posts that don't take anything out of me. I just really don't have the patience to sit and type one post for an hour and a half anymore to make sure my posts amount up to the amazing writings made by other people on this forum. Maybe it's this feeling I have that my writing's just not good enough? I don't know.
Honestly, I'm kinda falling into some sort of depression. Not like the usual depression I went through a couple years ago, though... I am capable of being happy, and I've had some of the best moments of my life in the past couple weeks, but I'm just... going through a phase of inferiority. I don't know if this has anything to do with it, but my social anxiety is also getting worse than ever these past couple weeks.. I won't really go into detail, but it's just really bad.
Anyway, all explanations aside, it's with a heavy heart that I say my goodbyes to TND. I'll still visit in the chatroom occasionally and pop in to say hi, but that's about it. I think that the reason I haven't done this earlier, depsite my inactivity, is my pure anxiety over the idea of wishing goodbye to my first full-time RP forum as Spain permanently (As stated above, he'll probably get snatched up pretty quickly) and I'm a bit nervous about someone else stealing Argentina with another OC. I thought about asking for an extension or posting a really, really late hiatus and praying that they'd make an exception somewhere and let me stay, but I knew none of that would work in the first place. Nonetheless, as the activity check ending grew closer, I knew I was being selfish in stealing them from everyone else if I know I'm probably not going to post very much anymore anyway. All I'm doing is keeping them from being active characters in this RP, and I feel awful about it.
Anyway, whether I've known you from Back in the Days or just met you in Tomorrow Never Dies, you're still my very good friends and I love you all very much. <3 I guess I'll see you around.
If anyone wants to contact me or add me on Skype, my deviantArt username is TrickyJinx, and my Skype username is TrickyJinxy. I'm on Skype 24 hours a day and check my deviantArt often.
I'm not going to leave just yet. I've decided to give my muse another chance and try to catch up to my posts. I'm sooo sorry I've been so inactive, everybody...
