Natalia Arlovskaya || Belarus

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Natalia Petrovna Arlovskaya Although beautiful, she's a rather cold and emotionless woman on the exterior, because she'd rather not expose herself to people she doesn't trust too well. She usually keeps reserved and to herself in her quiet little library, using quiet tones and the occasional snap of sarcasm whenever she's speaking to someone. Though if someone can really get to know her, they'll see that she does have a soft, emotional side of her, especially the side that's seeking love in her life. She isn't always playing around when she threatens someone with her knife, so be careful.

CODE NAME: Natasha

Female

19

Bisexual

Belarusian

Librarian

Broker [for Lawless]

Physical

5'7"

132 lbs.

Platinum Blonde

Blue Violet

Pale

Slender

Personal

Adorned in such feminine attire and ribbons, she’s the epitome of someone whose appearance contrasts her personality and whose inner workings show not on the exterior. Her pale face is dressed in a solemn monotonous expression which masks all that lies beneath it, eyes of cold violet regarding the world with apparent distaste, rosy lips stretching in rare smiles to only those that deserve it. She’s very reserved when it comes to expressing her emotions - especially in the face of strangers - and is most often keeping them all bottled up inside of her rather than showing them at the surface. And with such a serious visage, it isn’t an understatement to say she can come off as intimidating. While she doesn’t always want to come off as someone she isn't, she will often use these vibes to her advantage. Reserved and untrusting of strangers, she prefers steering clear of any contact or interaction with anyone, keeping them at bay with her unwelcoming and cold demeanor. If there is someone who sees past that barrier and does wish to be acquainted with her, she is very selective about who she trusts. Gaining her trust is not a simple feat, for her initial views on people are judgmental; she is wary of just about anyone excluded from her family circle and won’t like them from the start. She never was a social butterfly and never quite learned how to properly interact with people, and so any interaction she actually will engage in can often be rather short-lived and awkward. Without knowing very well how to start or contribute to conversations, she just tends to avoid them as a whole. This can make her seem rather timid and quiet, though she wouldn’t ever consider herself to be shy. If she needs to approach someone or get something through to them, she won’t back down from interaction. She’s a very blunt person who doesn’t see consequence in her words or actions - so if there’s something on her mind, she will often flat-out say it in the most blunt of possible ways; regardless of the effect it might have on people. She’s always skeptic of others' intentions, another factor which contributes to her hesitance with trusting. It is a sense of paranoia, but she’s protective enough over her siblings that she’s wary someone might wish to harm them or speak to them in a way that would upset her. Even if she might think her mind is set on who she loves, she will often find a deep rooted fear of becoming attached to someone else. Just because she hasn’t given up on her brother Ivan doesn’t mean she hasn’t noticed his fear of her all these years - it hurts, and she’s become afraid that the same might happen to anyone else she starts to like. Sometimes she can’t help but expect it out of other men. Despite such a stoic expression, there is a girl who is capable of being flustered and blushing underneath all that ice. Upon receiving compliments or affection of any sort, they will be quickly disregarded and thrown away, and that person will be accused of just saying that without really meaning their words.. though Natalia can’t help but hold onto the feeble hope that someone actually does think she’s pretty or something of that sort. If Ivan says she is, then she’ll believe it, but it comes as a surprise if someone else says so as well. Despite such a stoic expression, she most certainly isn’t incapable of feeling other emotions. Warmth, happiness, love and affection are emotions she’s very familiar with, she just isn’t always sure how exactly to express them the correct way. She’s gotten so used to being flat and without showing emotion that it’s strange for her to do otherwise, though at the same time she’ll think of the occasional rare smile or laugh as a rather nice change for her. If others tell her to try and smile and be happy more often, she doesn’t listen, for those are things people have to work to achieve from her. Although she’s the youngest of her siblings, she’s insistent on being protective over both of them, and showing them that she can be much more than just the baby sister. She’s watchful of who they interact with, only to make sure that no one seems too intent on causing them harm. In occasional stretches of desperation, she only wants to prove to her siblings that she’s capable of being strong and standing up for them, even if it means caring more over their safety than her own. More often than not, that truly is the case. If Ivan or Katyusha happen to find a love interest, while she will be awfully jealous, she won’t put it upon herself to do anything extreme about it. If she knows this significant other person make her siblings happy, then she won’t take that happiness away from them. Perhaps a threat or two, but she’ll let them live their romantic lives as they wish. Jealousy is a burdening feeling that seems to be with her all the time, even if it's another one well buried. Seeing a happy couple roaming the streets can make her envious, even the sight of women whom she finds to be much more beautiful than herself; but the only way she can deal with this jealousy is take it out on something else, really. Items lying in her path are almost always at risk of being destroyed if she’s in an upset or irritated mood, and she won’t refrain from injuring people if they are also in that reign of fire. She can be an awfully sensitive person who's easily set off by insulting remarks. Even if something makes her upset, perhaps even on the verge of crying, she immediately evades this by turning that into anger; whether it’s at another person or herself, her temper is something that is easily sparked. When she’s angry, she often is aware of what she’s doing and how hurtful her antics can be; but she often doesn’t care about the feelings of others if she’s meaning to crush them. Her threats can be brutal and they aren’t always something she’ll back down from doing if someone pushes her far enough. She may be emotionally delicate, but there is a lot of physical strength harbored underneath that pale feminine appearance. As aforementioned, she’ll get this pent up release by taking it out on other things, and if she does have to resort to unwanted tears, she’ll make sure she’s in the presence of no one. She doesn’t go out and seek company to comfort her in times like these, but she won’t always reject it either. There are indeed some fears present in her, though they’re another thing she doesn’t let show to anyone. She tries to make herself come off as fearless, what with her worry that someone will think of her as weak if she shows fear toward anything. She’s often jeering at and scolding those who are easily frightened by things, insisting to them that they need to strengthen up - when it comes to anyone being upset, she isn’t very good at consolation. She might just scold people for crying or doing anything that falls under her definition of a wimp, depending on whether they're close to her. There are a lot of aspects and qualities of people that can irritate her, and her words can come off as rather cold and cruel when she’s speaking to them. She doesn’t tolerate anyone who deliberately annoys her - even if they don’t actually mean to - and she won’t be afraid of causing actual physical harm to them if it means getting them to leave her alone. She can be picky about those who decide to befriend her, more likely to accept someone who’s strong enough to handle her brisk personality rather than someone who is afraid of their own shadow. She’s a very persistent woman who will put up a fight and do anything to get something she sets her mind on. A sore loser who doesn’t like to lose in such attempts, she certainly won’t bring giving up into consideration. She finds giving up a sign of weakness and so she will push all of her strength and will into something, even if it means causing damage to herself. It may seem at times that she just doesn’t know when to stop, and she certainly can come off as obsessive.. but her intentions are not to build herself a reputation like that. She hates being referred to as 'insane' or 'crazy', because she knows her efforts aren’t actually meant to scare someone or something away from her; she just wants that something to hold onto. She’s very patient in the sense that she will wait her entire life for something, but in the case she might have competition up against her, that patience may quickly wear thin. She is a competitive person and won’t be gentle in dealing with any opponents, only wanting to point blank get rid of them rather than waste time playing games. She does have a strong sense of pride, after all, and she prefers to keep it high in place. When it comes to romance, there are very few who will see the affectionate side of the woman. She’s very loyal to companions and always puts their priorities over her own, wanting nothing more than to see that they’re happy with her; because as long as she’s certain they are happy, then she will be happy as well. She’s subtle when it comes to showing someone how she feels about them, often reaching rather ridiculous measures to get her message across - she can be rather cheesy in this sense, liking to express herself through means of love letters, gifts, flowers, teddy bears, etc. Romantic things are always a soft spot to her, and she’ll enjoy such activities as reading romance novels, reading about weddings, looking through wedding catalogues. Being wed and starting a family has always been one of her dreams, as well as the whole cliché aspect of finding that one man or woman of her dreams. She’s always been surprisingly good with children, even though she can’t always figure out why they end up liking her. She can be strict with children if she needs to, but there’s always the chance of a more motherly slide slipping. She doesn’t often let this side of her show, afraid that someone will think of her as too girlish or mushy this way. But she can’t help herself being so star struck by these things. She doesn't like being labelled as feminine, despite her usual choice of clothing - although she is rather in love with fashion, always dressing up with ribbons and dresses of different designs, fabrics and colors. Despite her seeming inability to make friends, she’ll sometimes rather like having a friend who’s female in particular, because being around other females often makes her feel more in place. She may be hesitant at the start, but if another woman tries hard enough they can potentially persuade Natalia to let go of her more stiff exterior and actually let loose once in a while. She is intelligent and knows how to use her skills to her advantage. Her tongue is just as sharp as her skill with weaponry -namely knives - and she won’t be afraid to use this to get what she wants from somebody. Whenever she is actually meaning to make others afraid of her, she’ll use this intimidation as key to manipulate others into doing what she wants them to do for her. She can be quiet on her feet and therefore stealthy in her motives, having had a well amount of practice with climbing obstacles and sneaking around things throughout her life, and yes, she will often use this skill for stalking. Since that always comes in handy. She very well knows she’s capable of feeling and can be a good person and companion at heart, she just has trouble expressing it to others; such a quiet person who always seems out of tune with what’s happening, and who seems to stick out amongst everyone else, but really she’s only waiting for something to change. A complex web of personality is what delineates this woman, bundled under a layer of ice strong at the surface yet fragile at the roots.

Likes

Dislikes

Flowers | She will inwardly enjoy the sight of flowers, flax and sunflowers being among her favorites. On occasion she may try to grow some of her own, though gardening was never really her specialty. She would rather keep them in a vase or bundled up as a bouquet to be gifted. A fondness for flowers seems to run through her siblings. Knives | Her pride and joy is her throwing knife, safely hidden away when not in her hand. Sometimes she enjoys threatening others with it even more than putting it to actual use - unless she's in dire need of defending herself. She couldn't bring herself to kill with it, either, and injures only when necessary. As long as the blade isn't too dulled or ruined. Misplacing it or having it taken off her person makes her feel terribly antsy and aggravated until she gets it back. Strawberries | Strawberries are her favorite food. She enjoys various berries in general, most especially when they're mixed or baked in with another dish. Whenever she's offered a sweet, most likely she'll prefer it strawberry flavored. Sweets | A sweet tooth can't help themselves. This applies to pastries and sugary confectioneries of all sorts, so long as she doesn't always have to try and bake them herself. She isn't self-conscious about her figure, though she doesn't exactly want to gorge herself either. Dark Colors | She'd rather not wear colors that are flashy and attract attention, unless she really needs it for something. She prefers a darker environment, whether it's the weather outside or the drapery and decorations hung in her rooms. Dark blues and purples are her favorite. Snow | Even if she might not like the cold, snow itself offers a more homely feeling. She's been surrounded by snow since she was young, and back then she did enjoy playing in it whenever she had the chance. It reminds her of the few good moments she got to spend with family, a leisure she doesn't see too often nowadays. Dolls / Plushies | She uses free time to make plushies that resemble people she loves or is close to, as a way to keep them close and think of them even if they really aren't there. Rather than carrying them around and letting anyone else knows she has them, she only keeps them in her room once they are made. Regular dolls aren't as easily obtained, but she adores them all the same, even if she isn't open about it. Ice Skating | She's had plenty of practice and enjoys taking the time to go skating, whether it's with company (depending on the person) or, preferably, on her own. In either case, it's another way she can enjoy herself despite the cold temperature. Dance | She is enamored with waltz and ballroom dancing and takes interest in the event itself, balls that are lively with dancing and activity.. as long as she doesn't always have to participate. One-on-one dancing is a way for her to grow close to someone, and while the number of dances she knows how to perform herself is limited, she's also well acquainted with ballet. Rock Music | This was a type of music she was introduced to and enjoyed right away. She likes to listen to nearly everything that harbors the melodic or rough sound of a guitar, as the majority of them have lyrics that can speak out to her. Ivan | Needless to say, she is head over heels with everything that has to do with her brother. His language and personality, the ways of his culture and his traditions. She always wanted to be like him, completely disregarding anyone else's opinion on the matter. There is little that can waver her mind and it's probably the thing she is most persistent about, since she worries over her brother and wants to keep him safe. She seems not to care what others might think about him, but is defensive either way, wanting her brother to be accepted by everyone and to find someone that can make him happy, even if it isn't herself. Katyusha | Her sister is just as precious to her, even if she disapproves of her weak, crybaby behavior. She'd always looked up to her sister like a mother figure as well, giving her credit for most of the things Natalia is able to do today (sewing, baking, gardening) and simply another of the few people she, as the youngest of the family, will look up to and listen to. Her siblings are the only two who can make her smile, and she is incredibly protective of both and would do just about anything for them. Fashion | When it comes to outfits, she does like to experiment in different styles. Though she is most often seen wearing a dress, even if it's just a plain maid's dress, she is not shy to other things so long as they are not a sort of bright pink or anything else too contrasting to her personality. As long as she is seen as attractive to those whose opinions matter. Countryside | The bustling of cities is not her forte. She likes large, expansive tracts of land like those she's used to: the quiet sides of land that are not burdened by excessive noise or crowding people. Spacious land makes for better roaming, a more simple style of living and simply somewhere she has grown too well adjusted to to want to change, somewhere where she is less likely to be bothered. Love/Romance | She is all over the idea of romance, however cheesy the stories might be. Even if she isn't experienced in it herself, she relies on seeing the budding love of another couple or even a book or so - though asking for advice is embarrassing - to try and mimic on others to see if she will get the same result from her partner. And usually, it doesn't work out for her. Marriage | Natalia has always dreamed of getting married. She finds the idea of two people coming together in matrimony to devote their lives to one another a precious matter. She relies on marriage to give her the complete sense of belonging to someone, to be as close as she can possibly be, and to know that marriage means that she is a part of another person and they feel mutually about her. Horror | While romance is fancied, she's also particularly interested in the more macabre side of things. Though she may not always intend to, she does enjoy terrifying and making people panic when the mood comes. Ghosts, old legends and stories, modern books and films - it's nearly impossible for her to be frightened by them herself, and rather she likes to spread them onto others to see their reactions. Technology | She enjoys MP3 players in particular, as well as phones so that she can communicate with her siblings whenever and take pictures as she wishes. Trivia | She likes to collect random tidbits of information that aren't really of any use, and will throw out such random facts as she wishes. Pranks | Occasionally she will be in enough of a playful mood that she might play a little prank on someone, usually in the form of prank calling. She's very good at keeping a straight face while doing so. Stalking | If her interests have latched onto someone, so will the rest of her. Literally. She's clingy to those she cares for, and when not in actual range for physical contact for them, she'll be content to follow them around in 'secret' and observe everything they do, everywhere they go. Years of practice have led to her being rather stealthy at this. Knife throwing | When not practicing on actual people, she practices this skill of hers on common things such as walls, doors and trees. She'll do it when she's bored, or sometimes as a way to vent anger, frustration, or really any emotion of the sort; but either way, it's something that might be frightening to others, but very relaxing to her. Baking | She can cook only a few small things, but baking is where she's much better. Only when she's alone will she take to baking things such as small pastries or anything that involves using her favorite berries, and she of course never lets this secret reach the ears of anyone else. Observing things | She can spend hours staring at one thing, no matter what it is. Whether she's standing or sitting somewhere, her train of focus can remain on one thing for a frighteningly long while, and she will just quietly take in every little detail of whatever she's so absorbed in without finding anything odd about it. Usually houses or people. Daydreaming | She's very prone to spacing out at odd times, and usually it's because she'll be off in her own little dream world, fantasizing about things or thinking too hard on things that shouldn't be thought so intricately about. She'll tend to space out right in the middle of someone speaking to her, giving herself something more interesting to think about rather than the situation she's actually in. Romance Novels | She'll enjoy reading them - especially romance novels that fill her mind with silly fantasies regarding love and marriage and happily ever after.

Groups | No matter the area, she doesn't like general group gatherings. She doesn't like being in close proximity of strangers or really anyone else, nor does she like being social or having anyone in her personal space... unless she's the one willingly invading someone else's. Compliments | Being complimented on anything does not conjure the positive reactions its giver may expect. Even if they're genuine, she is commonly lead to believe that compliments given to her are out of fear or simply said even though they don't mean it; and since she usually can't tell which one, she chooses not to accept them. She finds it hard to believe anyone else's opinion on herself and usually will become flustered by compliments and, on account of occasionally appreciating them though not quite being sure how to react, she will be bewildered and deny them. Physical Contact | One must always be careful when laying a hand on her. Whatever the gesture may be is most often responded to in the only extent of physical contact she prefers to give in return: shoving the other person away, hitting them, etc. Noise | She'll despise anyone who's particularly noisy, and will always prefer a quieter, more peaceful place to anything that's too bustling. She speaks in low and quiet tones herself, but doesn't resist having to raise it to a higher volume if the need arises - if only to get everything else to quiet down. Being Ignored | While she doesn't like being under the spotlight, she won't want to be ignored when she's expecting otherwise, either. Even though a woman such as herself isn't likely to go ignored anyway, she will do whatever she finds necessary to make herself noticed - most often in situations where she wants to get her opinion across or is simply being protective of someone else. Being Bossed | She is young, but she hates when that is taken advantage of. Stubborn when it comes to being told what to do, she will either not do anything or do exactly opposite of what she is told, for as aforementioned, she only will enjoy doing anything for her two siblings. Disobedience | Stubborn when it comes to being told what to do, she will either not do anything or do exactly opposite of what she is told. She doesn't like to think of the fact that she's younger than both of her siblings, though still, they are the only ones she'd rather have to listen to. (She'd prefer to boss around someone who's below her.) Girliness | Things like bright girly colors, make-up, and shopping make her want to feel nauseous. Though there are points where she will tolerate them, possibly in the occasion that she's trying to befriend another woman and make nice with them for some reason. Jewelry | She's never fancied a piercing or tattoo, nor does she wear any accessories aside from her ribbons - only if jewelry is given to her specially as a gift will she consider wearing them. Lockets are perfect for holding a little memorable picture inside and wedding rings, of course, are key to a perfect marriage.. though other than those, she goes without wearing anything of the sort. Drinking | Her brother is a fairly heavy drinker and, drunk or not, it is enough to worry her what it does to him - she insists that her sister does not pick up drinking either, as well as having promised herself she wouldn't do so. Perhaps if she was really influenced to, for just one time, so long as he does not find herself with a bad habit forming. She's almost afraid of what kind of person she'd be if she were drunk, and that's why she tends not to try anything of the sort. Heat | Given her fondness of the snow and being used to her culture and climate, as well as those that surround all of Eastern Europe - although summers can get excessively warm and hot - she is content without having to go through those humid seasons all the time. Flirting | She's especially paranoid of the fact that flirtations might lead to nothing but being lead on in the end. When she has her mind set on someone, flirty attempts made by anyone else are immediately shut down. And even if she doesn't have anyone, she is wary and usually does not take lightly to other potential partners. Those types that flirt with anyone around are especially despised, as she doesn't simply want to be another object to be toyed with until they move on to someone else. Weaklings | She prefers people who can stand up for themselves rather than being a pushover. Pushovers are the types of people she'll like to taunt and push around all the time, if only for the sake of amusing herself, and trying to man them up a little. Crying | In her opinion, crying is indeed an act of weakness. It's something she would abhor to be seen doing in front of others, or doing by herself. She will tell herself she is stronger than that and force herself against tears even if she knows she's alone, though it isn't always possible to resist them.

Dreams

Fears

Finding Love | After being repeatedly rejected by the heart she sought, she's more sensitive when it comes to romance. The lengths she goes to in order to earn someone's love might seem desperate, but she'll be very selective about whether or not she'll try to move on and find someone else. While she's always been afraid of doing that, there's always the little thought that sometimes surfaces in her mind that there might be someone better out there.. she can actually become quick to like someone, and once she can warm herself up to that fact, she won't be hesitant to show this someone her feelings. She only wants someone whom she knows will stay with her, someone that will allow her to show how capable she can be of being a tame lover. Starting a Family | When she's ready, she knows she'll want to start a little family of her own, with as many children as she wants. She hasn't always been very fond of children, but she feels she'll warm up to them if it means being a mother along with a father she can be happy with. Getting Married | As aforementioned, she yearns to feel what it's like to have such love returned to her, to know how it feels to be loved beyond a simple family love. And marriage is something she most always dreams about and hopes will one day come, even if it doesn't get to be with her brother. She already has perfect scenarios all planned out, and how beautiful her dress and her groom's tuxedo and the whole entire wedding and its decorations and music will look. Starting a Fanclub | She would run one online if she could, just so that Ivan gets all the love and attention he deserves rather than being so lonely.

Rejection | It is perhaps the coldest feeling she's ever experienced, and of course, she isn't a stranger to it. With her persistence she isn't one to give up on something when she's rejected, and no matter her struggle to keep on striving to achieve something she wants, she still fears the cold bite of rejection each time. She does put a lot into trying to reach goals, after all. Abandonment | As independent she is when it comes to everyone else, she's still dependent on the presence of family - and most of all, her family actually wanting her to be around. She'd be lost without either of them and often does everything she can to make sure they accept her; were they to do the opposite, she wouldn't know what to do with herself. Betrayal | Gaining her trust is something that's difficult to do; but if it happens, then she'll slowly become attached and rather dependent on that person.. so to shatter that trust will leave her both humiliated and broken, and back to being distant from people as she was in the beginning. Fire | Of course, small flames like lighters and candles won't send her fleeing, but she'll be wary of them. She's frightened of the risk of larger fires catching and spreading, given how easily they can destroy something or someone. Drowning | She's never learned how to swim, so she tends to avoid large bodies of water in general. Humiliation | She still has her sense of pride that she doesn't like anyone else trying to ruin or jest at. Of course, it isn't often that people would dare to try poking fun at her, and even if her responses to such might be violent, she is capable of being rather embarrassed on the inside; and she doesn't ever want anyone to see that show on the outside.

Background

The youngest and final of three siblings, Natalia Arlovskaya was born in Vitebsk, Belarus. She was the final piece of a family stressing to achieve diligence and strength out of the elder two, and Natalia was thrust right in the middle of it. Despite the gap of age, Natalia would grow to set further strain between the three with how greatly her personality differed from theirs, her habits melding around those of her mother. Vitebsk is a city close to the Russian border, large and as cold as the Eastern Slavic area is most often depicted. The Soviet Union had just recently fallen and economy was at a weak point, though Natalia never got to see much of the city, anyway. Natalia had always been a quiet, peculiar child. She was distant from other children and often stuck to entertaining herself at her own accord, rejecting any offers for company. She didn’t have any dreams or aspirations that most other young girls did, but her imagination was vast. She began to grow dazed over ideas involving love, starting at the toddler stage of her childhood; though at that age, of course, love was only a grown-up feeling that she didn’t know anything about. But she wanted to know what it feels like, like all those ancient Russian folk tales would paint out for her: Snegurochka was a snowy woman unable to love, with an icy heart destined to melt were she ever to fall in love. Tales like this always interested Natalia, but she wasn’t able to keep her priorities on just that. While the strict dexterity of her parents struck Katyusha sensitive, Natalia was akin to behaving like their mother insisted. She looked up to her mother, always admiring how tough of a woman she was in raising her children, and Natalia always knew she didn’t want to be what one would typically imagine a female to be; feminine. She wanted to be strong, strong and tough like her parents, and like her older brother. In her younger mindset, Natalia’s vulnerable mind was quick to look up to her mother and begin to pick up on how her mother wanted her to act. Though she wasn’t oblivious to how Ivan and Katyusha felt around their parents’ overbearing approaches, but Natalia didn’t want herself to fall victim to her fear. She forced herself not to be afraid of her parents’ antics, wanting to be the one who could prove herself a strong woman like her mother insisted. Natalia did care for Katyusha, of course, she looked up to her sister as well for being the oldest of her and Ivan.. but she could never quite figure out why Katyusha turned out that way. Whenever Natalia would fall victim to fear or being hurt in any other way, Ivan would be the first person she turned to. She looked up to her elder brother like any younger would, always admiring the man that their father was shaping him out to be. While she had intentionally been following the footsteps of her mother, part of her wanted to be like her brother; she took comfort in his words and everything he did for his sisters, and soon coming for him for comfort would become a regular occurrence. He was the only man aside from their father that she knew, since other boys were often too afraid to approach her or she simply didn’t allow them to befriend her.. inevitably, Natalia was becoming more attached to her brother than she should be. But in this situation, she didn’t know right from wrong. She wouldn’t have thought there was anything wrong with falling in love with your brother, and she would stand up against anyone who tried to oppose her about it. Ivan was the prince charming figure Natalia read about in those romance books and knew she would always find for herself one day. Natalia didn’t realize why it was Ivan and Katyusha were wary of her, however. She didn’t always think of herself as a miniature image of their mother. As she grew into adolescence, Natalia began to grow aware of her own intimidating antics. She didn’t make any effort to change herself, however, but she never dreamed of using them against her siblings. She hated the fact that Ivan and Katya were wary of her, but she didn’t quite know what to do about, either. Her first course of action was to try and show Ivan that she was capable of being a good significant other for him; writing him things, gifting him things, pouring her heart out to him. And although it didn’t work, no matter what, Natalia knew her boundaries. She wouldn’t force Ivan into anything, she would simply never give up on him and give him time to possibly change his mind. So throughout the years, Natalia would wait, even if it is hopeless. Adolescence passed and her siblings were beginning to branch off into their own separate lives. Ivan had gone off to the Russian armed forces (which always had Natalia worried about the hazing conditions and their news-worthy effects of suicide on some members) and Katyusha had gained an interest in nursing. Natalia never knew what she wanted to do, herself, as she was still under her mother’s harsh drilling of good conduct for her daughter. She had grown distant enough from her father that she didn’t know how to react to his passing, though she was fretting enough over the fact she had grown so distant from her siblings as well. She had an immediate jump of fear that they would be leaving her behind, so along with going through all her years of high school she followed suit in moving to London where Ivan and Katyusha had gone to. She didn’t quite like it there, even if she didn’t mind the weather; it was such a bustling city, full of crowds and different people, easy to get lost in. Natalia never finished college, but she continued studies on her own terms. She took a liking to reading books; studying astronomy, psychology, several history books - and more leisurely, she got into reading romance, still, as well as horror and mystery books. She was very well aware of her siblings’ placement in the criminal side of the MI6, and though she didn’t join the MI6 directly, she wanted to do her best to help them out and keep them from danger. In cue with landing herself a job at one of London’s local libraries, she began to take on a much larger task. Selling information to those that opposed the agents, in support of her siblings. She didn’t hate the agents, no, but there wasn’t any chance of her choosing ordinary people over two people who actually mattered to her. She didn’t show much sympathy for either side in the city of London, nor its citizens, but she didn’t want to be useless to Ivan and Katyusha. Her residing in the library gifted her the quiet environment she desired - she’s able to think and work properly without anyone to bother her, aside from those needing help involving the books she always sorts in the library. She took on one of the diminutive names her mother language had given her, Natasha, though she always bristled when someone used it without her permission. Regardless, her dual lives are easily masked in the library where any other worker can easily take over for her, allowing her to slip into another room and work deals with any of the lawless who pass through.

Role-Play Sample

Kelly, Kendrick, Kennedy, Kenner... Andrews. Violet eyes that had been doing their routinely scanning of stocked books twitched, a pale hand rising to pluck that misplaced book from its spot. Didn't people know their alphabet by now? Natalya happened to be in the romance section of books, working as was customary to make sure that the shelves were all in their proper order by author. It was painfully common that library goers decided to place books wherever they pleased, especially when it wasn't even in the correct category. The book was carted over to where the A author section was, fit in with the rest of the romance books with the cliché couples on the covers. The men always had to look like Fabio with their lack of shirts and long hair flowing in the wind... it made her scoff. Men never looked that perfect, and these relationships weren't real anyway. She didn't want to linger here, lest someone caught her looking at all these cheesy romance novels. Not that she was interested in any. Or ever read any of them in her life. Not at all. She continued strolling down the aisle, continuing her observing to make sure that nothing else was out of order. The library was never as quiet as everybody thought, for there was always a noise around every corner to reach paranoid ears. The ruffling of pages, the scuffing of feet, the lilt of various accented voices speaking in hushed whispers to each other. There were always those that would make horrid noise on purpose, disrupting the peace of everyone else for their own leisure. She never bothered too much with those groups, because one; they tended to jeer or make gestures at her, or just not listen to her at all, and two; she unfortunately would be at risk of losing this job were she to stab a blade through their faces. It was a nice mental image, but she'd rather not disappoint her siblings by being fired. She never really treated anyone with a smile, not even a forced one. She came here for the benefit of keeping herself at peace and out of suspicion regarding her other job, enough that it almost felt like a second home here in this building. She'd answer questions, stamp books, throw books into the cart to be returned, and that would be it for being social. Otherwise she was able to curl up and read a book of her own as she pleased, until another disruption came up. Aside from the other librarians.. well, thankfully one of them was quiet all the time. Her blonde head lifted, noticing through a gap between two shelves that that particular librarian and another figure were conversing. Not that this was different from any other occurrence, though the one with brunette hair just barely sparked familiarity to her. The two women together seemed different than any other chance meeting.. but who knew whether this was her sort of business to pry into? Natalya was usually never one to approach other people, especially not with any blatant intention to make friends. They could just be talking about stupid girl gossip for all she knows.. well, somehow. Even if she was one herself, she barely understood how other girls work. So she'd pull this off subtly. Before anyone would happen to notice that she was suspiciously staring through cracks in shelves, she finally resurfaced to approach her spot at the front desk, sitting and smoothing down her dress. "I jost mate sure everythink is put back correctly," she offered in a mutter to Mi-Yun, eyes sliding coolly over to the Italian without much expectation for a response from either of them.

OOC Information

Jen

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What do you call cheese that isn't yours? Nacho cheese.

Good thing I brought my library card because I am checkin you out.

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